I come out and pause a moment in reflection of snowflakes once captured on my tongue. A random thought of tasting one again comes and passes as I move to take shelter in my car, shaking the stowaway flakes from my hair and watching as they melt before they can hit the floor.
I drive; a reluctant participant in this impromptu third act on the stage of winter, and I wonder when did I stumble from childhood into this person I have become.
I have heard the sledders at night on the hill; their shrieks and laughter carry over the hush of snow, but I do not think to join them. I think only of the warmth of my four walls and blankets of wool rather than the chilly white I once plunged into making angels of snow upon the lawn. I have grown cautious where once I would have roamed unfettered by the thought of wet socks and a runny nose.
When did I let go of childish adventures I wonder. When did I trade youthful exuberance for adult restraint?
Did it pass while I slept? Was it wished away with the blowing out of candles on a birthday long past? Or is it the result of some changeling being left in my place while I and those around me failed to notice.
I may still dream, but I have forgotten how to play, and find myself the poorer in soul for it.
I pull up to work, my driving done for the moment. I look up at the flakes still swirling down and smile as they dance around as if enticing me to join them. I hesitate a moment before thrusting my arms out and twirling; I open my mouth and sample the first snowflake in what seems a lifetime. Its chill on the tongue passes quickly, but it tastes as sweet as they did long ago.
I lose myself for that moment and simply thrill at the scent of snow.
A passing car honks, bringing me from my play I allow myself a few more twirls before gathering up my things and making my way indoors.
Maybe I am not as lost as I thought after all.
Bonus! As this blog is taken from word inspirations written by my brother, I thought I would share his own little thought on winter in here.
I love the imagery and beauty of this post.
ReplyDeleteI love your words, Shawna. They float across the page like those downy flakes you so beautifully described. You captured so much of how I feel. I love that you shared Jason's words as well. Must admit, it's one of my favorites.
ReplyDelete(Plus, I love the picture and the innocence it captured of the two of you.)
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